We picked him up from the breeder's on New Years Day, so I'm hoping that will be a sign of a good start to 2009... Cute, isn't he? He's also very smart and he and Phoebe are getting along very well so far...
(Man, we really need to do something about getting rid of that ugly couch...)
Anyway, so far 2009 seems to be starting out well. And it's a good thing because frankly, 2008 sucked. I can honestly say that 2008 really was the worst year of my life and I'm glad that it's over.
After my dad was diagnosed with cancer last February, it was pretty clear from the start that his time was limited. And I can look back now and realize that I basically went into mourning way back then. At times it felt like I was trapped in a horrible nightmare that I still haven't completely woken up from. I don't know how I made it through this last year. I had so much going on with taking care of my dad, supporting my mom, taking care of Jaime, working, etc... With as hard as it was to hold it all together, I don't know if I could handle another year like this again.
At the same time, I still appreciate the time I got to spend with my dad. I know a lot of people aren't that lucky. Though there were times when it was so painful to watch what he was going through and I just wanted it to be over... It's like either way there's pain involved and I always felt selfish no matter how I felt.
I also appreciate the people that were there for me, my father and the rest of my family during this last horrible year. You all know who you are. I often felt like I was all alone and I hated to ask for help, so even the smallest kindness meant more than I could ever put into words. I've tried to sit down and thank people individually, but it's still too hard right now. I hope this is sufficient for now...
Anyway, new year and new start. I want it to be a better one. I really think it will be...
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