32-35. What do you want to achieve 1 year from now? … 3 years? … 5 years? … 10 years?

Two months ago, I wrote these words for Question #24.  "I hope in a year from now I'll feel a bit more secure. I hope in three years, I'll have some accomplishments under my belt. I'm hoping by five, I'll have built a home and a life to be proud of."

It's kind of vague, but it definitely emphasizes my need for security.  Not just security, I want to be independently secure so that I don't have to depend on anyone else to meet my needs.  Not that I don't want to have other people in my life, I just want to know that I have the ability to succeed on my own.  I want to know that I have the ability to take care of myself.

Year 1 - 2014 is about me building security.  What that means to me is that after I left my husband, I spent a lot of time with the wolf at the door.   After a lot of struggles and hard work to set my affairs in order, as of today, to quote my mother, "The wolf has moved down the street, but he's still there."  Not where I want to be still, but at least better than last year.  So, by 2015, I think I can deal with the wolf being a few blocks away, possibly looking at a new neighborhood to move into.  It's a matter of prioritizing my debts, building a better budget and continuing to sock a little way in savings.  As much as it hurts, I know that it's all going to pay off in the long run.

Year 3 - I want to be free of debt.  I really think I can do it.  Luckily, I can live cheaply.  I also want to grow in my job.  I want to have a higher close on my commissions and sales.  I'm pondering looking at learning about the financial services side of my job.  But I know there's so much to learn about insurance in general still, that I need to focus on that first. I've only been licensed for three months, after all.  I think in three years,  I would be in a good position to branch out in financial services.  I also know Jaime is going to be going to college in a few years and I want to make sure that she is prepared for that transition, both financially and maturity wise.  I want to make it so that she can go to whatever school she wishes and that she has the ability to succeed once she transitions    into college and adulthood.  I've seen small signs of emerging maturity, so I think with  and a lot of love (and maybe a little yelling when she does some crazy teenage thing), she'll be ok.

Year 5 - I want a house. My house.  My own house.  Whether it's just me alone or me sharing it with another person, I want one that feels like my own home.  It doesn't even have to be a house. It could be an apartment.  I just want to be in a place that feels like mine.

Year 10 - I actually have a perfect picture of what I want to have achieved and what my life would look like. But some things... I like to keep to myself. Sorry, Internet.

31.What would you do if you cannot fail; if there are no limitations in money, resources, time or networks?

Honestly, I'd still spend a lot of time sitting around and reading!  I could be a "woman of leisure" and lounge about.  But knowing me, I can only lounge for so long before I would need to get up and get moving.

Then I paid attention to the first part of this question, what would I do if I couldn't fail?  How would I transform my life?  What would I take a risk on knowing I could do anything?  I know that I'm probably supposed to think career wise, but for me my career is about building security rather than building wealth. I really only want to have enough money to make sure I will have my needs met.

When I think about what I want to achieve without failing, I think it's more about wanting to make myself into a person I would be proud of and would be happy to know.  I would take that chance at jumping for the things I know I want in my personal life that often seem so far away.  I want to build a home that is comfortable, that fills me with peace and is a place that I want to build a real life in.  I want to have a place where people who come feel like they're also at home when they walk through the door. I want to build place of happiness that I can share with others.  A big house to wander about in and find nooks to settle into when you need to be alone for a little while.  Like a safe haven.  A place of peace. That's what I want to build.

This is probably not the way I'm supposed to answer this question. But hey, it's my list. I get to do what I want.